Alright, so let's see. In the last few days since my post, a few things have happened. For starters, me and Chey have done a lot of talking. We have been discussing our relationship and how we communicate with each other. I think it's a rather interesting coincidence that we started talking about how we communicate almost exactly the same time at which I decide to start blogging.
She has had me reading some books about relationships and I have found these to be rather enlightening. As it turns out, women are not as complicated as most of us guys think once you take into account a couple of ideas. First, most of us guys process our feelings by ignoring them and doing other things for a while why we sort them out in the background. Most women on the other hand process emotion by talking about them. Second, almost everything that a woman does or thinks has emotion tied to it. This is because their brain is like a dual-core processor, that has one thread for logical thought, and a second thread tied to the first that processes emotion. This is a good thing because it means that women can multitask far better then men. The third thing is, a lot of the time when women are upset about a problem in their life, they don't want us to necessarily solve the problem, the just want us to actively listen to how this problem is making them feel.
Now of course, this is a grossly oversimplified version of what I've read, but it seems to make sense to me. If any of you women out there disagree, please, comment below and let me know where I screwed it up. I'm making an honest effort here to learn how to better interact with the fairer sex, and I need to know if I'm approaching this wrong.
Ok, now that I'm past that, I guess I should talk about the rest of my week. I've spent some time hanging out with some friends that I haven't seen in months (unfortunately that is more likely the rule than the exception for me lately, a rule I am trying very hard to change). I have also set up some times to see some of my friends later this weekend, and after I get done writing this post, I'm probably going to pick a direction and just go, hitting up whatever friends cross my path. I've been lacking in the social department the last few months as I've been getting my career and my home life on track.
Physically I have been doing well. I'm down another 3 pounds this week, even though all I've done different this week is cut out the bread and use tortillas instead. I've been sleeping better even though I have reduced my medication again. It seems that my body is finally starting to get used to sleeping a full night through, and now I may not actually need so much help.
For the past few months it seems as though my eyes have been getting worse, but that might just be my imagination. It may be that I just need to clean my glasses more often, or that I need to put more effort into making my eyes focus.
Mentally I seem to be getting stronger every day. I've kind of been on a mental vacation for the last few months as my life has gotten progressively worse. The last couple of weeks I have spent a little more time each day applying myself however, and it seems to be paying off. I'm starting to engage other more often, I'm having less trouble remembering things, my focus is getting better, and my thoughts are starting to race again. It has been a very gradual thing, and I'm sure that part of it is that I'm reducing my zombie-creating meds, but I know that part of it has also been effort on my part. I'm starting to sound like myself in my head again. Feels good to be back.
Spiritually nothing has changed for me in the last few weeks. I seem to be getting along just fine there, and it seems that recently I have found my groove in the universe. I'll spend some more time examining this later when I have less on my plate.
Financially very little has changed. Chey is still in charge of that part of my life. I can't express with words alone how grateful I am to have her assistance with that. I'm not sure what my hangup is with money, however I'm leaning towards the theory that it's just that I have made mountain of a mess with my finances and that I just don't want to deal with it. I'm extremely lucky to have a partner that is willing to help me so thoroughly in that department.
My education has had a spike this week. I found a site a while back called sliderule that helps you find both free and paid online course for any subject that you might be interested in. When I found this site, I knew that I would want to use it at some point in the future, but I didn't have time then. After exploring it a bit yesterday, I discovered a course on how to use Python on web servers that seems just what I'm looking for. I haven't sat done and done any work on it yet, but I'm sure I will soon.
Mmmm, good coffee! :D Sorry, wild tangent.
Umm, let's see. Vocationally, I'm still on the right path. I don't want to give away the surprise yet, but I received word yesterday about when some changes in my life are going to happen, so here in about 3 weeks I should be able to tell the internet as a whole.
That just leaves my emotional state. I'm still very disconnected from this side of myself. Me and the Doc have talked about how to section of that side of myself in order to keep it from influencing the rest of myself in a negative fashion, and I believe that I have gotten that particular skill down. Doing it in reverse is much hard it seems. I think part of it is the zombie meds, yet I know I'm still not making the connection on my end either. I do think that I've been able to successfully resolve some of the issues around my job, Chey, my friends, and my money, and while I don't feel any exuberant feelings of joy, I do think that I can sense the overall feeling of relief. I'm going to have to ask Doc about this and see if he thinks I'm ready to fully reintegrate my emotions into my greater self.
Anyways, I think that is just about all for now. This seems very therapeutic to me, so I suppose that I will just have to keep it up. I don't want to seem too eager, but I feel like I'm finding my voice again. We'll see how it goes. Alright, here's my report card:
Physical: 9/10
Mental: 8/10
Emotional: 6/10
Spiritual: 9/10
Financial: 9/10
Vocational: 8/10
Educational: 7/10
Social: 6/10
Total: 82/100
Grade: B-
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